the list

*dum dum dum*

lol

anyhoo
those who are close to me would knoe what this means
and the new info is..
*drumroll*
the list had grown!
:O..
actually..
not that shocking huh?

hshaha

anyhoo
moving on
I'M IN KUCHING!!
hahaha
bloody hell yeah!
but its been raining and all and i havent been anywhere besides

• the airport (mini KLIA)
• sri bahagia
• mummy's house

lol..

anyhoooo i'm gonna go off now coz i have absolutely nothing to say haha

ciao for now!

confused part II

haha ok so here goes
still confused but different reason

i'm sitting in front of a bright screen amidst the voices of women packing.
(you dont knoe how much they can talk bout, from one topic to another.)
so it kinda adds to my blurness.
everythings just around me now.
gosh.

moving on.
the target?
my prev target
muahaha
sadly it hasnt ended.
more sadly i cant even speak openly here.
(just in case)
yeah soo...
first it was that nyte
then the songs came.
then the messages.
and i stopped coz of recent information
but then recent information was false.
sort of
then i kinda retreated back on path.
but data came back
reality hit, target and centre!
but then in a few secs it was gone.
and he got me laughing.
he got me smiling.
and he got me feeling it.
again...

isat bad or good?
should i just let it go?
or should, like he said "you should go for what you want"
its all nice but confusing.

haha whats the saddest part is that this blog seems to be dedicated to my so called love life.
and nothing else.
lol.
but truth is that the onyl problems i have
other problems i cnt be bothered to put in here.
its too personal.
and frankly i dont want anyone knowing bout it
ya wanna know, get to know me first and ask me.

gosh i'm going to kuching in loike 7 more days!
a week more
i cant wait!
lol.

*reads back and realises i changed topic randomly*

hahaha
whoops.
nvm.
my blog.
my rules.
my desires!

haha i wish

plus i just realised i cam whore less now
which is kinda of a surprise.
and a disappointment.
i have no one to camwhore with now.
thet're all gone.
either to college, or to the us or to kelantan!

you know who you are!

ish.
an hour left to buka puasa.
and i'm too lazy to continue any further.
hmp.
will continue another day

bwai.

confused? maybe.

ok
so what happens when a close friend asks you to be his gf?
what happens if you never thot of him in that way?
what happens if he actually had a gf?
what happens if you like someone else?

what happens?

everything goes haywire.

well not really but i dont have the heart to say no.
neither do i have the heart to say yes
so its kinda hanging now
even tho i dont even know if i have a chance with the guy i do like.

gosh...
wouldnt it all be better if we got the things we wanted?
but then it'd be so boring!
haha
i cant seem to make up my mind.

but you know what?
life still goes on
and we all hope for the best.
ryte now i'm really hoping things turn out good.
hope for me too?

gosh

i quite like that word now
gosh
gosh
gosh
goshgoshgoshgoshgoshgoshgosh
lol
ok
i think you should be able to recognise the signs..
i'm bored!
and jobless

well now i'm like so free..
going back to kuching in 8 more days
hahaha
8 more effing days and i'll be in kuching
yay
10 more effing days and i get to spend time with fiqah and chiq

so for now i'm like calling everyone i knoe and asking them to buka puasa with me
before i go to kch..
gosh
[see there i go again]
8 more days
lol.
besides that i can finally meet some people which i havent met in ages or whom i havent met at all.

besides the fact that i'm excited to go back to kuching,
i'm frustrated by the fact of getting a car
my problem is money!
well i can get a part time job now and like save up
plus i have my raya money
but like if i'm paying for the car myself
it'll take me 7 years to pay it off!!!
7 years..
so i'm trying to pick a good car now
if i'm gonna hafta live with it for 7 years
but its alright ryte?
i mean like i dont really need a flashy car
coz i kinda wanna do mine up anyway
hahaha
airbrush..
engine
exhaust
springs
tyres

loll
i'm getting ahead of myself
i dont even have my lisence yet
which poses another problem!
haha
but thats a minor problem that can be done after raya
now its just the car!
and the money..

first gotta find a job after raya.

eee..
now marq has brought to my attention other expenses

owh wait
not.

hahahaha
it doesnt concern me...
much
lol.

well for now it doesnt.

now just gonna worry bout the job.
myte work in ou.
toy shop.
well sounds like fun ryte?
someone encourage me please.
i really want my car!!
i want to be able to drive around.
to have access to go out!
geez.
now i knoe wht it means to grow up..
and i dont like it that i'm growing up faster than most of my age
[in terms of responsibility and maturity.. and regretfully looks.. ish]
wait till after raya la

hopefully everything works out like it always does.
hopefully.