emotions take control.

isit normal to blog so many times in one month?
fuckit.

sat nyte was fun.
to all you ex elc-ians it was nice seeing ya
then after that was nice too hahaha
well some of it.

ok.
moving on.

haha love me shutterslut and flashbitch!
memories man!
haha
the things you do that you'll never forget
like..

"Go England!!!"

ahahaha..
that nyte was dumb
dumb but fun
cant believe i left my toblerone there.
what a waste of rm1.70

boredom strikes so this wouldbe the time where i would be thinking the most
bout wht happened.
bout some things.
or some people.


haha not so much of think as dream
but everyone daydreams.
so no harm done.

hmm what else?

ooh i got a hug!
haha
how pathetic can i get.
i got offers and dates
but i prefer a hug more
maybe its coz of...

nvm
ya'll can deduce edy
(=

hmmm..
worthwhile?
yes?
no?

you tell me.

i only want one answer.

but wondering whether i'll get it?

Falling in love

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't matter who won or lost. What's important is you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means you're not part of it. Everything happens for a reason, for the best. If the person you love, doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for it. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters. If you wanna go on you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single carress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love ourself. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and beckon the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self, to love is to risk to not be loved in return. How to define love: Fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that can last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom. Who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, they were the things that help you grow.

Loving someone means giving him or her the freedom to find his or her way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but must be taken no matter how painful or scary, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There will be a time in our lives, where we will be afraid to fall in love because everytime we do we get hurt. Then i figured that's why it's called FALLING IN LOVE..

[Chiq, my beloved cousin .<33]

What the hell?!

haha
what the hell?
life is so twisted :P
lol.

retribution comes to mind when i think of this situation
haha.
depressing but funny at the same time lol.

sorry hyper mood
kinda happy

but i miss hugs and holding hands.
i miss caring words and/or whispers.
i miss someone taking care of me.
apparently i miss alot of things

but cnt really dwell on those things now
although i'd love to
but effing busy with work, training sessions and show.

)=

my leg aches!!
but i enjoy dancing.
i actually dont mind when i dance.
jst when i stop then i start exxagerating and complaining
but before that i'd be twisting, twirling, etcetc

hehe
life is fun.
jst some things fuck it up.

trying to always see the brighter side.
but sometimes its hard.

anyone wanna help me?

Plain white t's- my only one

Oh please, don't go.
I need you.
I'll please you, not mislead you.
If you would be my only one.
Together we move slowly.
I'll never leave you lonely.
If you would be my only one.
If you believe
we were meant to be.
Why'd you leave me alone?
What happend to forever?
I'll try to make things better.
If you would be my only one.
Now six days since we've spoken.
I'll fix you when you're broken.
If you would be my only one.
If you believe
we were meant to be.
Why'd you leave me alone?
If you believe
we were meant to be.
Why'd you leave me alone?
If you love me too.
Can I call you?
My Only One.
If you say no.
I won't let go.
My Only One.
If you believe
we were meant to be.
Why'd you leave me alone?
If you believe
we were meant to be.
Why'd you leave me alone?

One..

haha my first blog :P

so usually i guess we treat this as a diary ryte?
like a diary everyone can read..

haha

ok so ya'll can get to knoe me better then
(=

so now then i'm me

i'm unique..
but so is everyone else.

and as you can see i'm a pessimist unless i got a cause to be optimistic

(=

i love dancing and music..
they rox my sox!

i'm sort of a performer
and i've done salsa, samba and bellydancing
yesh!!!

haha

oraite..

as a person.. or as emotions i am usually erm..
blur,
emo,
jobless,
hyper for no reason,
talkative.. unless ppl start talking bout things i dont knoe!

basically thats what i think..
but ya'll might see differently

emotions run my life.
kinda hard for me to think straight sometimes hehe..

i am currently single but i aint available
and i hope i dnt screw this up..
i really do..

anyhoo moving on..

i'm studying art tho i suck at it..
haha

and i'm living a lie..
most of the time..

someone help me untangle this web of deceit?