does it matter?

does it matter at all that i try to make peace with you?
does it matter at all that whenever you change moods i still follow?
does it matter at all that i like talking to you?
does it matter at all how i feel?
does it?
cause thats not what i seem to be getting.
everything i seem to be getting is just negative and against me.
but i cant hope for a best friend.
coz no matter how much he said he would try
and how my happiness means the world to him
i dont think he will.
im sorry that i chose another.
im sorry that unknowingly i gave such a short time.
im sorry that i cause you so much pain and agony.
im really sorry.
but you wont let me properly say im sorry
cause whenever we talk harsh words seem to spill out.
arguements start and never end...
it is better for you to just let me go.
and never talk to me again?
you seemed like the perfect person i could talk to.
but it ended up the same like everyone.
they talk and i listen..
except this time we seem to be argueing more and more
like always eh?
why should this time be any different.
why should it be any different at all?
anything i ask you will be replied with a ''Does it matter?''
''You have plenty of other people to fill up your time. Ppl who are more important to you and whom you've known longer.''
if thats the case then why do i bother talking to you at all?
can it be for the reason that i care for you too?
maybe not the way you want me to but i still care.
more so why do i bother making peace with you?
when all we do is argue the minute we make peace.
why do i fucking bother???
you tell me.