normah van houdt naem.. my ass!!!

i'm single but unavailable.
i'm free but tied.
hahahaha

[you knoe sometimes i feel so sad bout keeping this blog but who cares.]

bottom line naem is no more.
after one week and two days.
and i'm glad.
my prev posts?
fuckit!!!
i was dumb as always
wait more like blurrrrrrrr

anyhooooo.
so i went out with za on friday nyte
and it turns out i met clara there as well
small world
but by the by it was nice meeting her and her bf and his friends.
dint take photos that nite except for one.
wow that was a miracle
but all other photos were taken by erik
and i look so awful in all of them!!!

but it was a fun nyte
wait it was a really nice nite

met zuki, (who is from kch oso.... i knoe.. small world...)
his dad, (whos really really nice.. lol)
erik,
arif,
and few others.

haha
it was a fun nyte
and we'll hafta see whether it can happen again

i wish i could recount everything into this blog but its not safe to do so!!!
haish
problem innit?
hahaha
but its ok coz everyone whos close to me knoes what happened anyway.

ok so moving on
i have this problem
and i admit it.
i'm scared of relationships.
more of i'm scared of getting hurt.
or fear of anything else happening.

what made me realise this was someone asked me whether i believe in love.
and without thinking i said no.
straight out no.

but i so wanna believe in it.
i just havent found reason or cause to do so.
i am wishing someone could make me believe but guess i gotta be patient.
patient
patient
patient
patient
patient
patient.

arent i always patient?
gosh even with a theoretical question i can hear the voices of people saying no.
agaga
anyhoo.
i'm trying.

and i hope i succeed...

[reach for the stars, you might not get it. but you wont end up with a handful of mud.]