insomniac

owh gawd i've been sleeping irregularly these past few months.
more so these past few days.

ok so its 17th july 2006
i turned 17 2 days ago.
yay
whee

its a monday and i havent slept.
my figures are all 80% complete.
and the only thing on my mind is food.
wait food and him.
(those who i hold dear to my heart will know wht i'm talking bout)

moving on life is unfolding.
and we gain experience.
but does experience count?
it just proves you've gone through it before
but it doesnt necessarily make you a better person, or better at that thing.
it can happen to you over and over again
but you can still repeat the same mistake.

will you ever change?
or are things going to stay like this forever?
it happened not once, not twice, but this would be a third time.
sucky innit?

owh bugger.

and i dont know what to do.
i'm still here
waiting

and not only is it happening to me but to other people around me.
i'm stuck in this parallel universe where only this happens.

and how do i escape?